Much to my mother’s dismay i have this horribly amazing habit of collecting and keeping just about anything and everything. This includes, but is not limited to- magazine tear outs, ticket stubs, buttons!, jars & tin cans, socks (even if there is no match, i get it from my mama..), fortunes (im going to epoxy them to a table one day), t-shirts, random memorabilia, antique furniture & blankets (thanks gma!), annnd horoscopes (free will, duh).
after our chat, I had some running around to do downtown and lots of pinterest inspiration pumping through my veins, so when I picked up this weeks mountain express i quickly flipped to the middle pages to find my horoscope, and then superstitious me (thanks, dad) started to wonder if last years horoscope had any insight into this whirlwind of a year that followed. And then I remembered it had to be somewhere in those stacks of pages ive ripped out over the years.. and sure enough, bottom of one of the many shoe boxes led me to…
2011: In 1967, the U.S. had 31,225 nuclear warheads. But by 2010 it had a mere 5,113. The world's most militarized nation hopes to scale down to an even more modest 3,000 or so by 2021. In the coming year, Scorpio, I'd love to see you be inspired by that example to begin reducing your own levels of anger and combativeness. You don't have to do away entirely with your ability to fight everyone who doesn't agree with you and everything you don't like; just cut back some. I'm sure that'll still leave you with plenty of firepower.
meh. if you know me, you know I probably had no interest in being told that then, or now for that matter. And last new years things were going wonderful until 2011 decided to rear its ugly little head (for the first of many times) and abruptly put an end to that early on with my dads passing on jan.15th. That snowy, foggy, dark morning marked the beginning of an icy road ahead. Amidst the shock and heartache 2011 so graciously brought with it, I've really tried to seek some solace in the natural ebb and flow of life. Remembering how I used to love to chase the rise and fall of the waves on the shores at the beach with my dad holding my hand as a child. How in the natural cycle of life it was only fitting we take part of him back to that beach that he, and we, oh so dearly love.
How with sorrow comes joy.. and vice versa.
How it takes hardship to let you love the rest.
How there’s so much go and stop and go along the way.
And how he’s still ridin’ that highway,
helping me to figure out where I’m going.
There were so many personal resolutions I “tried” to make throughout 2011 that when 2012 rolled around, I sure as hell wasn’t ready to make any more. And I wasn’t about to backtrack the miles(!!!) I’d traveled over just these last few months to feel bad about not following through with another one..
(an impromptu mother daughter trip to mexico and a dear friends wedding weekend brought me back to a place where I could finally let go of some of the resolutions from the past and begin this journey up*, into the present..)
*my horoscope the week I returned from nola: In his poem "Ode to the Present," Pablo Neruda tells us how to slip free and clear into the luxuriously potent opportunity of the present moment. The here-and-now is so ripe and willing, he says. "Take a saw to its delicious wooden perfume," he continues, and then "build a staircase. Yes, a staircase. Climb into the present, step by step, press your feet onto the resinous wood of this moment, going up, going up, not very high . . . Don't go all the way to heaven. Reach for apples, not the clouds." Such good advice for you, Scorpio! It's a perfect time to learn more about the magic of the present moment as you free yourself from "the unrepairable past."
And in this challenging year I would have to say I have traveled oceans, and mountains…literally. But yea, however the saying goes.. And if theres one thing my diddy taught me, in his living and his passing, its that not much else matters in this world aside from how you treat those that you care about and the relationships you share with these people. his motto always was 'dont sweat the small stuff', and although thats a lesson i could still afford to pay a little more attention to, its true, life really is just too short.
2011 did close a few doors (maybe slam a few in my face), but it also opened a few windows and gave me hope for some new possibilities. i have a new appreciation for things i have taken for granted in the past. no doubt these next few months will be difficult and challenging, i just hope i can continue to flow a little more graciously through this new year than its past. i feel so unbelievably lucky to have some of the best friends and family in the entire world and am constantly reminded of that every day. I wouldn’t be here now if it weren’t for all yall. muchos (wheat)gracias, and so so much love.
...I think ill pay a little more attention to this years horoscope ;)
2012: Many of the questions we had as children never got resolved or answered to our satisfaction. They still remain marinating in the back of our minds. Meanwhile, fresh queries keep welling up within us as the years go by. After a while, we've got a huge collection of enigmas, riddles, and conundrums. Some of us regard this as a tangled problem that weighs us down, while others see it as a sparkly delight that keeps making life more and more interesting. Where do you stand on the issue, Scorpio? If you're in the latter group, you will be fully open to the experiences that will be flowing your way in 2012. And that means you will be blessed with a host of sumptuous and catalytic new questions.
i think i will go with the latter, sumptuous and catalytic dont sound half bad..
..and i could probably afford to be a little less combative too, now that im thinking about it..
So call it superstitious (the writings on the wall, er, car windshield) or my father’s daughter (or whatever you want) but ill carry 2011 very close to my heart not only with the wonderful memories I have with my diddy, but also the journey its taken me on. here's to more mountains beyond these, with beautiful views along the way for us all. and knowing that 26 marked on my foot the start of a new year, its important to keep reminding myself, with help, that tomorrow is a different day...
I promise I will continue to post more consistently in this new year and that the ones to follow are a little more 'up beet'.
**i had a hard time getting started, and this is a little rusty so thanks for following along if you were able to keep up. . and those that caught all the wsp ref. ive been a little excited about nye & mexico with the boys!
here's to a wonderful 2012, yall!
Reach for apples, not the clouds....love it.
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